Running away

FINALLY get to meet my PSDarlings ! so HAPPY ! :D

thts all for today . tmw meeting them again. wee !~

XOXO,

Fadaarling.

The whole of today has been spent at RP, im choreographing the song "cinta lebaran" for my dearest PSDarlings . Well, i had quite a hard tyme choreographing as even SNT is dancing tht song, and ive seen it before . and hafta make sure the steps are nt "copied" . But so far, i aldy choreographed almost half the song aldy, which is good . and i love the steps ! :D

We searched for dancers for last min shows, and also planned alot of things for PSD, like training dates and everything with my PSD tweenie, Yana . :D Hope you girls would love it and i miss all of you ! can't wait to meet all of you TMW ! muahh !

XOXO,

Fadaarling

Its been quite sometime that ive perform malay dance on stage, and today ive did it with my SNT girls ! well, it started off as a bad day; my hp batt gone flat, got a scolding frm Boyf for nt checking time on the first bus/train, i missed a bus, missed train, took the wrong LRT 3 TIMES and even press the wrong floor at sheiqeen's apartment . fucking spoilt my mood . reached sheiqeen's house, get ready face base and hair, then eat .

even more bad luck, we were late for the performance, our performance didn't go as expected . met Boyf there, and he wanted to follow us to Wirda's house cos we need to change, and he got bad mood the day cos bcos of tht he was stuck under a bridge cos it was raining and he gotta stop his bike . hais :( Today TOTALLY sucks, i swear.

Met Kirin at Mac with Boyf, he looks happier, joke ard and stuff, but as expected, he's still nt happy with me . got a big scolding frm him when i got home . :'(

Also went for PSD training, and found out there's so many upcoming performances ! yay !

i miss my PSDarlings so much ! muackz ! and also planning for jln rayaaaaaaaaaaaa !~ and going home from training, i bumped into Abg Syahmi, my abg angkt, in the bus ! whoa loooooooong time nvr see him ,. more handsome nw aldy . haha ! :P

okay, im in a fight with Boyf nw . bt i admit, its my fault for troubling him so much . sometimes, u cant really compare ur hw good ur Boyf is than other's Boyf's, but shud compare the BAD ones too . hais . its my fault overall . so im sorry . shall nt trouble you to come for any performances anymore . shall not, will not.

goodnyte.

XOXO,

Fadaarling.

Family and I didn't went out to raya today . bcos mama & papa were very tired . decided to go waterfront and lepak with whole family there, tht plan also cancelled bcos the weather doesn't look tht good . so at last, as usual, we rot at home . -.-"

But as on the brighter side of life today, i got a new HANDPHONE !! a new NOKIA X6 16GB TOUCHSCREEN phone !!

It was actually supposed to be mama's fone , in which she actually wanted to give to papa . but since papa's contract was gonna finish on this coming August, and mama doesn't know hw to use the fone, so at last i got the fone at 1/4 the price from mama ! which is AWESOME ! :D So whole day played with my new fone, transferring stuffs and all bcos it doesnt haf a memory card, the fone's only has a built-in 16gb memory .

Now waiting for Boyf to reach home from his jalan raya . oh well ~

nytes people, muackz ! :D

XOXO,

Fadaarling.

Its 9.40am now, and Bby's still nt bck home yet from his friend's chalet . and his hp off . sigh . wer cud he be nw ?! he called me at 2.30am just nw saying he's going home soon, but till nw no news frm him yet . no msges, no calls . Even his family dunno wer he is nw . hais .

Cud he be lying to me ? that he's nt gonna drink ? bcos he knws he's gonna ride his bike ? or maybe bcos he drank ytdy thts why he didnt wanna ride his bike and come home ? hais . or cud he be mingling with other girls nw ? or did he get drunk and ride his bike and nw he's _______ ? OMG . i cudn't help it anymore . i cant think straight anymore . i trust him but im very doubtful nw tht he hasn't contacted me for more than 6 hours aldy .

sayang, where are you now ? i miss you :'(

Boyf's has been found ! so the case is, he's baat was low and he overslept at his friend's chalet. -.-"

But i still think thts very irresponsible of him bt its okay, i apologized aldy anw . and promised me nt to get me fucking worried sick again . and i also promised nt to worry and cry as if he's dead the next tyme . lol :P

So it's the 2nd day of Raya . today we wore PINK color . my fav color ! :D went to 4 houses again . ive been loving my makeups these raya , idk why . hahaha xD

here are some of my fav pics for the day.. :D

Will be going out again tomorrow. maybe green color tmw. nw i need to kol Boyf, i missed him so much aldy aftr he went missing for 9 hours just now.. :'(

nytesnytes sweethearts ! muackz !~

XOXO,

Fadaarling.

YAY YAY DAH RAYAAAAAAAAA ! :D

FINALLY, no more sahur and buka ! Nws just FOOD FOOD FOOD !! woohooo !~

But BAD NEWS: I MERDEKA-ed ON MY FIRST DAY OF RAYA AND THT SUCKS ! tht spoilt my mood abit but who cares, its raya ! Kuihs, ketupats & F&N drinks ! fuhh !~ tiring2 day today . when at nenek house, i slept like a pig and didn't eat . LOL :P Collection pon dah dpt bykk ! and waiting for more ! wee !~

One thg i noticed this raya, more people are wearing fake lashes . haha . okay random . but i was one of them also . but i didn't wear today okay . cos no time to siap cos i spent most my makeup time sleeping . haha . and thts bcos i had a late-nyte call with Boyf ytdy till 5am in the morning . wtf ryte ? i knw . muahahahha ! :D

As for Boyf, nw he's at Sri's birthday chalet . trying to understand him fully ryte nw . i can't always be with him . he needs his time for his friends too ryte ? the drinking part, nahh, i trust him . anw, he's gonna ride his bike so i think he's got the brains nt to drink ryte . its actually 1.47AM nw, and im still waiting for him to be home . i just cant sleep when he's nt safely homeyet . *sigh* i hope he's enjoying himself there and knw his limits too . i think he'll be home in the morning . but whatever it is, im still gonna wait . :P

So happy waiting to me and gdnyte to you !~

XOXO,

Fadaarling.

Ive never posted about this before, but im gonna open a makeover company soon . you see, ive been in love with fashion & makeup since young and has always been thinking of doing somethg with wat ive got . So i tot of opening this company . well, this company hasn't got any name yet . bcos it hasn't officially open . it's just a plan btw . and gotta knw tht cuzizn Addah also doing the same thg soon , whoa, has it become a trend or wat ?

As for nw, im just playing ard with colours and brushing up my makeup and hair and creativity skills . im still a beginner anw . so do look out for it yeah ! and do tag me if u have a company name for me . thnks !

Nw conferencing with Shab, her Boyf and me . so kecoooooooh !~ but too bad Boyf has to sleep as he's been very tired after meeting me just nw . oh yes, i forgot tht part . i break fast at his place just nw . ate spaghetti (: okay gotta get back to the conference !~

XOXO,

Fadaarling.

Idk why but suddenly i started to worry abt my studies & future . it's such a super random feeling, yknw . and i cn get really depressed when comes to think of it . i am SO not doing well in my studies, for sure . i mean, when was the last tyme i really paid attention and studied/revised ? my attendance isn't tht good bcos i often came late, i rarely submit my hmwrks, and i failed a few test/quizes .

Last 2 days plus today was my paper and i totally screw it up . i studied at the very last min, and ntg gets into my head . by then, i knw it's too late to even approach anyone for help . im so clueless abt what im doing & im very worried cos i can only do 1/4 of the paper, and most them i left blank !

Maybe im too used to studying last min frm sec sch until nw, thinking i cud get tht kinda luck every tyme . but i was SO wrong . who said poly life wasn't as tough ? i think it's worst than my sec sch days , in terms of studies i mean . if in term of friends, i made many gd frens in poly who always encouraged this lazypig fren of theirs to study but i just wudn't listen . dnt say frens, even Boyf who constantly nags and blabber asking me to study also i didn't wanna follow . what a stubborn bitch i am siaa . and nw, im regretting everythg . bt wats there to be done nw ?

At first, i was too afraid to tell Boyf abt this topic, bcos im afraid he'll blabber more abt what happened than wat i am suppose to do next . But in the end, as usual, he always knws when i am nt okay and he managed to found out himself and i thought wrong abt him, he's been very supportive and positive abt the situation, in which, makes me very touched . despite my stubbornness, he's still there for me and carrying me up when life came crashing on me . i also feel very ashamed towards him . :/

So you see, it so suck to be in a course that u dont wanna be in . seriously, NOTHING interest me at all in this course . i just took this bcos tht was my last resort if i wanna study in poly . and also, just to get a diploma . bt as for nw, im just afraid if i hafta retain or stg . *sigh* but in any cases, ive aldy promised Boyf to study harder and catch up faster no matter what the outcome will be . and i will . for me, Boyf and the diploma . i will . i promise, even i hafta force myself to love somethg i never liked .

HAPPY LEGAL 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME ! :D

My birthday this year was a total BLAST ! The night before my bdae was spent with Girlfs Eyka, Saf & Yana tweenie ! it's been a long time since ive celebrated

it at home with mom cooking lots&lotsa foooooooodd ! And on my birthday itself, spent whole day with Boyf ! Hw fun could it be ?! except for the starting wer i fought with Boyf, bt it ended up good at last though . :)

To see how the celebration with Girlf look like, view here !

2 celebrations, so i had two cakes for my bdae ! A fruitcake from Papa & a decorate-it-yourself cake from Boyf ! Wee !~

Thanks to ALL these beautiful people in my life, i celebrated my 18th birthday almost PERFECTLY ! Love you all to bits and pieces !! Muackz !!!

XOXO,

Fadaarling.