Running away

ferst of all, CONGRATS dear..
u've made it!
u've passed ur TP hunnehh!
omg.
it's like a dream come true, isn't it baby?
gaahhs. xD

went down to BBDC today.
then i saw this one cute-looking guy sitting at the bus, wearing long sleeve.
guess wad? when i went closer, it was MY boiifren! omg omg omg!!

he acted dumb saying tt he failed. custard.
bt i knew he was lying from the start. ( gaahhs. too bad. :( )
xoxo then went patrolling at a nearby blokc.
boredom strikes and off we went again, this time, to the coffeeshop.
bought bandung. (a.k.a "bendang")
hahaa. funny spotting incident sia. wth.

then he brought me to a secondhand-heaven.
it was such a beautifully, breath-taking place.
didn't knew he was tt romantic hurhs.. hees :)

spoke out words of love wisdom.
a romantic scene, isn't it? aww.

bt time was so short. and so is life.
so enjoy it as much as u you can.. like ME, and soulmateKU. (:

and hey! got a voucher from pweety raudah.. a makeover and photoshoot free voucher lurhs bby!
woo! been waiting for this.. hahaa. xD
and and and.. do u think he wanna take wif me too? ohh pleaseeeeee syg...? *symphathy look*

today's a good day. and im happy, coz he''s happy.
i just love seeing those beautiful smile on his face the whole of today.. i just love it so much.

i love you bby.
i really do.
muah! xoxo

ok...
evrything is in love mood rite now.
n i hope it'll last long.
:)

now another problem appears
tmrw is my tp
im excited but at the same time...
very nervous
really scared
so all i need is good luck from all of u
:)
hahahahh!

n I LOVE FADAA!

KhAiRiN

There is a lot of violence,
As i sit and suffer in silence.
One cut leads to many more,
And soon my skin becomes all torn.
I watch my blood drip-
Then I put my hand to my lip,
Just to make sure I don't scream-
Wondering if this is all just a dream.

But I realize it's not,
As this battle inside is fought.
This pain is so real,
And as sad as I feel,
I wish my heart would just heal.
But it won't...
Just too many damn times it's been broke.
So the consequence is this,
And that is...
The cut of my wrist.

im so fucked up these days. and yeah.. im starting my habit of wrist-cuttings again. been so emo these days. but baby, every drop of the blood i shed is for you, every drip show how much i love you, dear.. things are all starting to change. or maybe i was the one who changed? idk. this just hurts so much. nonono. it's TOO much.

Fadaa and Khairin. it's not wad they used to be. they're now like strangers. idk where i stand in his heart nw. im so sick of writing all these emo stuffs. and i noe he's sick of reading them too. but wad can i possibly do? all i can do now is cry. even when i noe it doesn't change anything. ok. maybe he doesn't noe or maybe he dun wanna noe.. bt im suffering a lot nw. i will not tell him wad it is bt i'll just give a clue, tt baby, watever i do, i do it for you.

and like i said, i dun wanna disturb you anymore.
this time, i mean it.

AND stop saying you love me. i dun wanna hear it anymore. thnx.

bt i just wish for once, u'll prove it. :(

We pledged a lifetime,
Lay our souls before each other,
And pledged them too.

We sat that one summer's night,
Lay our bodies beside each other,
And spoke our truth.

Combining a lifetime of dreams,
Into a future of reality.
No-one said it would be easy,
No-one said we will always see eye-to-eye,
But we submerged ourselves willingly.

I'm sorry if I am not always what you want.
I'm sorry that when you go left,
I sometimes go right.

But arrival at my destination shall only be complete.
If I arrive with you.

Thanks for allowing me to touch the light that is you.
I love you infinitely.

To khairin: im sorry. i won't disturb you anymore. gdnyte and gdbye. :(

Labels: a good day gone bad

YAY! spent my whole time with him ytd and today! woohooo!!
i love him many many larh ohkayy! i really do. (:

&& morning bus rides are LOVED. :)

note: tmw's RHD and idk whad to wear!! oh god. the same kebaya? maybe? :(

today's F&N paper was CRAP larh ohkayy! urghh!

Happy 8th month-sary, Khairin baby! <3

We are older now but better by far

Who knows how good it can be

Our love still grows like a plant in the sun

Or a wave rising up from the sea.

We laughed before,

but we laugh more now.

Life is more fun so it seems.

Days are sunnier, the moon shines brighter,

Our life is the stuff of dreams.

We shared in the past,

but today we share more.

There’s a warmth that keeps growing inside.

We loved when we met; it was powerful then,

Yet now our love’s strong as the tide.

You’re the best, dearest thing to come into my life,

Like an angel from out of the sky.

And I know one thing sure,

You’ll be dearer still, as the time goes by.

i had a great tyme with you today, darling. we can make "it" happen alryte?

thanks for the presnt syg, tt's so sweeeeet of you.

ily truck loads much baby, pinky swear! (:

2 exams today. haiz...
Maths paper 2 and Chem.

Maths paper 2 was ok. it was quite easy indeed! yayy! bt can't be too confident ryte? xD

for Chem.. managed to ans MCQ easily.. bt section B and C was CRAP ohkayy! i wrote dwn dunno whad nonsense. haiyoo.

F&N coursework is done with. byebye brain-cracking coursework! urghh!
damn. so tired today. bbye earthlings.
time for a nap....... zzzzzzz

ohkay. i've realise i've been writing ramdom entries these days. exams everyday. haiz. it just sucks ohkayy. cracking my head over books and notes. feel like burning them all siak!

and so.. today.. went out to study with Haziq. been long time since i saw him. nyeahaha! he looked diff though. bt nvm. gotta noe today he's got a gf larh seh! haha xD in hasn't told me b4. wth.

studied at MAC and was there all the way.. je taught me Chem. i started to irritate him with my childish behaviour. haha! got frustrated and said "if u study i'll buy u a chocolate milkshake!". ok people. it's CHOCOLATE MILKSHAKE! hw cud i resist?! haha! at last got it. the cont studying..

went home diff ways. i gotta get home. and im late. as usual. haha. he has to see someone.. in which i think shud be his gf? idk. and dun care. haha!

wer is my baby today? i was expecting to bump into him but nahh.. it didn't happen. bt nvm.

alryte, the BIG issue for the day..
BOTH me and my baby is NOT in the mood. WARNING: DO NOT GO NEAR. DANGER!
ohh well.. even when i went out wif Haziq today.. im still nt happy larhs ohkay! i dunno wer my baby is.. im sucha BAD gf man!

went home and called him. he said he's nt in the mood. alryte, he sounded soooo moody. so i though i shudn't irritate him. alas, he told me his story.. shhhhh! secret larh oii! xD

disappointed i am. tts wad.
fine. im done. nt in the mood to tell everything. :(

yeah!
finally get to meet her just now. after 1 wk + of not meeting.
luckily she dont have a calculator to use for her math paper today
if not...
i think this coming sat than we get to meet.
haiz...
anw, this sat is our 8th month!
time flew and 4 more months its already a year!
haha
i just cant wait..
for this sat, ive got a surprise for u syg..
hehe
just wait n see.
she said she bought me a vespa.
i dont even have an idea wat is she talking about.
i wish its a real brand new vespa.
hahah!

KhAiRiN

alryte.. today's SS paper sucks. as usual.
only managed to ans the SBQ qns correctly.. dun talk bt SEQ larhs.. i gave a 4-line ans only.. hahas! xD

HAPPY BURFDAY LALA!

may all ur wishes come true and best of luck for ur 'N', baby!

Boy: Can I Have Your Number??
Fadaa: Sure Give Me Your Hand...1-989-I'm-Taken...

ohkayy. im really bored.
you noe, mom's been TOO naggy these days. and i can't withstand this man!
i just feel like stuffing something into her mouth so as to make her stop. PERMANENTLY if i could.''

dad talked to me just now. confessing some stuff. hw sweeeet. (:

hubby's rewang-ing at Asrul's. ferst tyme heard him rewng-ing. haha!
didn't knew that he was that hardworking. haha!

it's 12 sharp now and mama asked us out to MAC. haha. wth. and so, went to buy MAC and hang out at yishun dam. ate there. then. went home.
by the time i reached home, i dropped dead on my bed.

and so... nyte2 to all sleepyheads. x)

ohh god! i forgot to meet Haziq!!
shit shit shit. he's sure gonna get damn frustrated. :(
and even forgot there's a malay structured after skool!!
nw i you can call me "little miss forgetful".. (if there's such.. haha!)

went home straight after skool. then went off to johor.
bla bla bla.. ate DURIANS!! they're my favourite!

alryte, tts all for today..
Llttle miss forgetful i am today. really.
haiz..

hello earthmates!

been a long time since i updated dhis bloggie of mine. haha. XD

okay, where shall i start..

well, lil' bro is in the hospital. haiz. his eyes is being hit by silly lil' sis. haiyoo. and it's nt me ohkayys! haha.

been 'home alone' for the last 3 days. BORING. like seriously! urghh! so decided to go out wif Lala today.. go bugis.

and so, met her at MSL mrt station. took the 960 bus and off we went. disturbing HOT guys as usual. haha. (nahh..)

ouh ya. talking abt Lala, i haven't told u guys abt her isn't it? haha. Fada dumb dumb. (:

well, she's a long-lost earthmate i just found. haha. ohkayys... she's my baby's god-sis. she's one gorgeous babe. ohkayy larh, straight to the point alryte? she my new fren! nonono. GIRLFRIEND. haha. hope she won't be like Wada and Sabby. oh pleaseee.

first stop, bugis junction. went to TOPMAN to look for Lala's boyfie's one month present. bt ended up nt buying any. haha! then went to DIVA. was attracted to the cheap prices. bought a cherry necklace with "best" and "friends" respectively. hey, com on lah.. a new friendship is under construction ohkay! haha.

next stop, LJS. ate there and crack lame jokes. haha. only OUR voice can be heard in the restaurant. haha. wth.

next stop, Bugis street. durh! spree-ing of coz. we both bought a shirt each. she bought dull green. i bought cherry red. hahas. satisfied and off we went.

wad? camwhores? OF COZ! haha. a LOT. bt only uploaded some coz lazy to upload all. hahas!

nyte2 gundus of my heart. (:

Now I'm just hoping maybe tomorrow,

there'll be no more sorrow.

Maybe tomorrow you'll give me a glance,

Maybe tomorrow you'll give me one last chance.

Maybe tomorrow you'll give me a call,

Maybe tomorrow I won't cry at all.

Maybe tomorrow you'll hug me tight,

Maybe tomorrow you'll kiss me good night.

Maybe tomorrow you'll take back my heart,

Maybe you'll give me a brand new start.

I'm living with dreams that won't come true,

For you will never love me as I love you.

missing you,

FaDaarLing

'mean-time' is now 3 days long.
i dont know how long or how far it will go.
i hope it stops soon.
but yesterday she called.
talked.
but end up the same.
we still argued.

she said we cant really get along well
but after thinking about it, if we really
cant get along, then how come next 19th is
our 8th month??
these 'thing' only came about around
early this month.

KhAiRin
miss u

&& for oral. i talked CRAP. hahas.

well, life cudn't have been worse without him. but i did this bcoz i want to give him some space. and also for us to think abt hw we've been throughout the 7 mths. coz it didn't seemed to be a gd one. but i hope it get things get back to normal, though. till' tt day, i'll be missing him.

things are getting better between me and mama, and some of my friends. bt i still dun wanna fall for their words again though.. Faiz said sry to me today.. well, my patience is paid off after all.

today is 2nd day of our minor separation and i still haven't got any calls from him yet.
"cud he even thinking of me?", my lil' heart kept whispering to me. i hope things are getting better for him over there.

today, went back home and not a living thing was at home. i was alone. my family went to JB. so i was left alone. chatted, studied, surfed etc. then went to play wif ina's lil' new bunny outside. a cute lil' one. then ina accompanied me cook his favourite food.. NASI GORENG KAMPONG! aww.. missed him soooo much tt all of a sudden i wanted to cook tt. bt this tyme, i'll be eating alone. no one to spoonfeed me. haiz.. and it rained. shows how much i REALLY, REALLY MISSED HIM!

alryte, im still waiting though.
&& i need a BIG hug now. :(

so yeah. thats me! in a few months tyme. (: since i didn't get a chance to say gd luck to hym today i hope this helps. take this as a good luck sign, ohkay? and yeah.. gd luck syg!

b4 subuh met syra-uh. she had a haircut. very SHORT haircut. well.. helped her out with her hair. hahs.
got consulted by Ms Tan. and yeah.. it's abt the last few weeks. hw'd u noe? hahas.
ok crap.
went home super early today.. skipped one of the POA lesson. im nt taking it anw. hahs.
and ohh gawd! evaluation and time plan is such a BITCH! tts the last thing for my coursework and it's done. bt im too lazy to complete it. hahas. lazy bump! :P and guess wad..? i haf to hand in first thing in the morning tmw!

irritating PRELIM is coming to town! urghh! and im still stuck here doing nth bt staring at those piles of books and notes everyday. aahhh! feel like burning those junks.

wad im gonna do today:
1) help mom with some homey stuffs.
2) start revising on chapter 1 and 2 for SS.
3) finish up my coursework. (and i hate tt!)
4) complete those carppy hmwrks.
5) miss him. :(

gaahhs.
lotsa stuffs yeah?
alryte better get going.
bye donkeys of my heart.

Labels: i can't help myself. i just miss you... :(