Running away

Dear diary,
today's the eve of new year and i dun get any feel of it though. maybe thts bcoz 2009 won't be as fun as 2008 as baby's going to NS. i really dunno hw am i gonna live without him. im gonna miss him absofuckinglutely much! but hey, only married man cn choose to go anot ryte? so baby must quickly get married! hahas. okay tht was a JOKE okay! bt somehw... *evil smile*

well, let's get bck to today's happenings.
woke up in the morning and he was the ferst to come to my mind. bathe and everything, met baby at bus stop. took the cab and off to cwp to buy Mama's chee kueh (is tht the ryte spelling?), Firzan's beancurd, and then bought my stationaries at POPULAR. but he was the one who paid for everything, except for my stationaries. hw suhhweeeet ryte? (:
he gave me my new yr present. thts wht makes me wanna cry. coz i didn't get him anything! he bought me a pair of Everlast palm shoes and a box of candy cane!

Baby was suppose to end at 7 in the morning. (wth ryte?!) bt later on, he called n say tht he's otw to cwp. OMG. tht is lyke sooo near to my house. bt unfortunately, i can't join him thr. :( so i 'camped' with the lil' kiddos outside my house and played with 'light stick'. haha. okay i noe tht so pathetic..

it's 12 sharp ald!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
and i called him to wish him happy new yr! we waited for the fireworks bt at last there wasn't any. wthell ryte?!! then he went to lepak, as usual, when i thought tht he wud want to spend the ferst hour of new yr with me. :( since our resolution this yr is to be strong and matured, thn maybe it starts from nw. i'll just have to let him be with his frens. :(

he came home at arnd 1++ am. i wasn't in the mood atm and i started to run wild. well, if he was to think of me n come bck hm early and spend time with me this new yr, i wudn't be liddat. but since it was part of my fault for running wild, i wanna say tht im sorry.

so we put down the phone 'badly'. then i went to sleep, hoping tht tmw will a better new yr.
a miracle perhaps?

ohh wht a new year.

Dear Diary,
baby's working till nyte today. worst still, he's going for a bbq aft tht. & im sure he'll be hm at arnd... 3 am? and yes, tht wud mean tht i can't talk to him today. :( just had a few chats with him.

CHAT 1
Baby: syg! its my breaktime nw.. (: im eating.. u tgh uat pe? da mamam? hari ni no plan?
Me: ngah baring2.. idk why im feeling so restless today.. ):
Baby: y syg? anything bothering u?
Me: nahh.. its just tht im bored. hahah. *smiles*
Baby: okay.. mama said anything bt ytd?
Me: nope. hahah! err.. wht are u having for lunch dear?
Baby: nasi ayam lemak n hotdog. you?
Me: julie's biscuit. nyeahaha!
Baby: laa.. mkn meal lah.. bsk wht plan u haf?
Me: rot at hm again, i guess.. ):
Baby: im sori syg. i cudn't make a gd new yr for u.. :(
Me: nahh.. having u being with mine on new yr is ald gd enuf for me.. (: (trying to cheer him up)
Baby: gd enuf is nt enuf. i wan it to be perfect.. ):
Me: u n me will be fine tmw okay?... go haf fun with ur frens tmw. im alryte okay syg?...
Baby: *shows sad face* klah.. i got to get to work ald. ily.

CHAT 2
Baby: k bbq done nw eating at mac.. wht u doing?
Me: watching tv..
Baby: ok.. eaten?
Me: err... yaaaaa...?
Baby: julie's biscuit again? -_- hw bt meal?
Me: nope..
Baby: then wht were doing from just nw?
Me: eat biscuits, watch tv, sleep, missing u n waiting for u to come hm..
Baby: alah. sori lah syg.. tkkn everyday ur plan tu je kan?
Me: well thts has been my everyday routine.. hahah.
Baby: aww.. mane blh n cam gini.. sampai biler kann? nasib baek skool da nk start..
Me: yes, WORST indeed. esp when being in a room full of heartless aliens, monsters and probably, dinosaurs?
Baby: haha.. promise me u won't entertain them k? give me those kind of wonderful results again k? promise?
Me: alryte.. im ur strong n clever lil' girl ryte? err.. okay maybe nt so lil'.. haha!
(he didn't reply aft tht)

and yeaps.. tht was the end of our conversatn..

its so bored today. idk wht else im suppose to do at hm ryte nw. other than obviously, rotting. okay, wht shud i talk about today hurhs?
hmm... *thinking hard*

alryte, got it! let's talk bout new year shall we?

new year heh? uhm, this yr's new yr is just lyke those previous ones. i asked papa whether i cn go to the countdwn party at Marina, bt all he said was "u're still young. it's nt for you." wth. who or wht does he thinks i am?! a baby or wht?! lyke hello?! im gonna be 17 soon...? just LET ME GO. its so rimas when comes to think of it. bleahh!~

wht abt you, aliens and monsters?
hw u gonna celebrate ur new yr?
tell me about it NOW.

its 12.30 am nw n he's nt back yet.
wer cud he be?
i miss him. :(

Dear Diary,
i've been way too busy the last two days. Jemputan here and there. pheww!
more jemputan wud mean more make-up. and more make-up means bad face. ):

well, i've been working on my face. it's better than the last tyme. but nw idk wad product to use. i think its better to wash with plain soap and water rather than using 'beauty products' coz it doesn't really work out for me actually. and i've been eating at least a tomato a day. haha! let's see hw it goes..

idk whts gt into baby. all of a sudden he called and asked me out for a movie today. was he dreaming or wad?! well, at least im glad he's trying to be nice once in a while after weeks of our disastrous fights. oh ya, we're gonna watch Bedtime Stories!

aniway, its been a loooooooong tyme since we've catched a movie or even go out just the two of us alone. the last tyme was... our 1st yr anni? which was lyke a month ago..? -_-

i met Hakim at yishun mrt first. i was late. as usual. again again. -_- then took a cabby too hyatt hotel (which is also baby's working place). i almost forgot tht i left my hp in the cabby when we got out (see hw clumsy i cn be?!). saw baby in his attire. he looked so diff! soooooooo handsome! & he's MY BOYF okay! (((: waited for him too change which took him lyke...... 20 mins? (obviously worst than a girl!)

then off we went to 'Flash & Splash' and he bought me a Ripcurl FlipFlops!

ohh he's soooo charming. (((: then we went jalan2 for a while before going to the cinema. bought popcorn, nachos and coke. but too bad we gobbled everything up before the show even starts. hahah! show ends and we took the taxi home...

To baby: If only u have ur motor nw, we wudn't be wasting our money on the taxi fare! too bad u can't tickle me nw! Boohoo! xD
and yes, thnx for everything today baby. ilysm! muahh!

okay gdnyte earthlings.
zZzZzZz

There's been plenty of times I've tried,
tried to make you happy,
tried to make things satisfying enough for you,
but every time I try, you leave me empty and broken.
I long to feel whole again,
whole again with you.
What happened to us?
I'm dying inside for the one I love,
the one you used to be.

Who are you anymore?
Where is the person I know?
Why is everything so messed up?

Where's the boy who leave's breathless?
Where's the one who makes my head spin?
the one that leaves me yearning for more?

I used to to make you happy,
are those day's over?
you used to love to hold me,
so why do you push me away?

My heart ache's for you.
are you gone?
is there hope?
should I give up?

you're my world, my life.
and I just can't bare to see it crumble to the ground.

and the truth is,
I'll never stop fighting for you.

ilysm.

& tht pushpop was my bestfriend for the day!

Dear Diary,
Idk whts wrong with us(me n bby) today.. all of a sudden, we didn't called each other for the whole day. i feel so weird. well, everything's weird today. i just dunnoe y..

at first, i thought he might be busy or something.. and then when i called him, he was playing a "game-strictly-for-noobs-only" called DOTA. haf i told u abt it? oh i nw i will. i HATEEEEE tht thing. it's lyke a third party in my relationship; him spending tyme with DOTA till 3 in the morning.. lyke, wth!

okay im going to bed nw.
tomorrow's gonna be a new day.
a better one, i hope.

not in picture: Amalina & her boyf.

Dear diary,

i noe its been quite a long tyme since i updated u. im sry. :(

well, today is my ferst trip to Escape Theme Park! it was superr-dee-doooperly fun! i went there with baby, Wandi, Hakim, Amalina & her boyfie. and i was late. as usual. (:
had fun the whole day 'till we took only a few pichas.. :(

thts all for today.. i had great fun today, baby. i really did.
thnks alot mooncake. (:
i love you vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv much!!!

Dear Diary,

went out to masjid sultan today for a class. then went to eat. went home and surf the net. i came across a survey. i did coz im bored. -_-

Bold what is true::

1. i cant wait to go back to school
2. i want to avoid school
3. my bff is emo
4. im a prep
5. soccer is my favorite sport
6. i only have one CD
7. music is life
8. i have braces
9. i have a myspace
10. i miss my ex
11. my sibiling is a year older then me
12. i live with my dad 13. i live with my mom 14. i live with my whole family
15. i own a business site on xanga
16. i live near the beach
17. i hate valentine’s day
18. i think these random questions are gay
19. i have 5 or more screen names on aim.
20. i have at least 12 pets
21. i dont love animals
22. animals are so sweet
23. halloween is my favorite holiday
24. my sister is adopted
25. im adopted
26. i like rubber duckies
27. i drink soda?
28. i like to give suprize parties
29. i give to baby
30. i live in the city

Bold what is true::

was born in:
-1985
-1986
-1987
-1988
-1989
-1990
-1991
-1992
- other

Bold what is true::

i was born in:
- january
- february
- march
- april
- may
- june
- july
- august
- september
- october
- november
- december

Bold what is true::

i am a/an:
- aries
- aquarius
- cancer
- capricorn
- gemini
- leo
- libra
- pisces
- sagittarius
- scorpio
- taurus
- virgo

Bold what is true::

i own:
- a cell phone
- a computer
- a laptop
- a lava lamp
- a black light
- a bong
- a tv
- a dvd player
- a sex toy
- an ipod
- an mp3 player
- a cat
- a dog
- a fish
- a bunny
- a unique pet
- a car

Bold what is true::

i have a:
- brother(s)
- sister(s)
- step-brother(s)
- step-sister(s)
- half brother(s)
- half sister(s)
- i’m an only child

Bold what is true::

my favorite color(s):
- red
- orange
- yellow
- green
- blue
- purple
- pink
- black
- white
- brown
- gray

Bold what is true::

my parents are:
- married
- they re-married to different ppl
- divorced
- seperated
- one is deceased
- both are deceased
- i’m adopted

Bold what is true::

i want to work in:
- fashion
- business
- music
- acting
- writing
- singing
- law
- animal care
- medicine
- psychology
- criminal justice
- teaching
- automotive
- sales
- politics
- design
- other

Bold what is true::

i want to travel to:
- new york
- california
- florida
- some other state
- england
- canada
- africa
- italy
- france
- germany
- ireland
- jamaica
- scottland
- other

Bold what is true::

i like:
- rap
- hip hop
- r & b
- metal [some]
- screamo
- gospel
- classical
- country

Bold what is true::

religion:
whether you are or at one point have been:
- buddhist
- christian
- catholic
- wiccan
- satanist
- jehovah’s witness
- jewish
- muslim
- mormon
- atheiest
- agnostic
- other

Bold what is true::

my cellphone:
- t mobile
- altell
- sprint
- verizon
- cingular
- other ntelos
- dont have one

okay i noe today's post is boring. maybe thts bcoz i am t00. hahah.
alryte. gdnyte peepos, sweeeeeeeet dreams.

i miss Khairin.
where cud you be nw, sweetheart?

Dear diary,
as usual, im soooo bored today. spent my tyme collage-ing photos of my malay dance photos.

im so frustrated with papa! he asked me to quit malay dance. WTH! and im lyke gonna haf a performance this coming 21/12! i feel so bad for backing-up at the last min. wth. my parents are the WORST parents on earth. they're the meanest. they dun understand me! they noe my passion is music. n dance is part of it. plus im nt working nw, at least if i go for performances, i'll get credits! wtf. thnx to them, idk hw to face my dancers nw. im so sorry, preetygirls. ):

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Dear Diary,

at last! my new blogskin's done. pheww.

oh well.. it's been getting bored as the days goes by. i mean, no work=HOME. it's just so boring. it feels lyke i haf no life! staying at home just sucks. all i do is eat, drink, comp, tv & of course, the fone. ((:

oh somebody, save me from this boredom!