well , its been quite awhile since i talked abt boyfriend . well , FYI , i & hym are just "special friends" now . im sad , disappointed , worried , glad . sad because this is the 3rd time i lose him , dissappointed bcos its 1yr plus tht we've been together yet probs are still nt settled here & there , worried bcos feelings may change in this process , in which is gonna be long , glad bcos he still dun wanna let me go as nothing . but so far , we haf been okay going through this process . he said we're gg through this together . so together , we'll get stronger together . & today is our 1st month of being special friends .

i met him just nw . he look different after his field training . unexpectedly , he kissed & hugged me once he saw me . you see , he still do loves me . i knw he is . i do too . the day was spent with him . he took me for a ride on his bike aft mths of nt doing so . we were so close today , felt as if it was the first time i met him . haiz .. only god knws hw much ilh . really .

& as usual , camwhored alone in the bus . people were looking at me but wth , i dun care . i was just doing tht out of boredom . nyeahaha !

Wandi & Hairul followed too . & at last , the day was spent at I.R.C @ BT . haha . i played along too . played left4dead , super fun but really memeningkan lah okay ! in between , he kept on kissing me ont he lips and cheeks , as if tellg me tht he missed me so much . hais ..