Friday, July 31, 2009
Dearest diary,
idk where to start .
k , let's just say .... wht kind of a friend am i ?
okay , here's to SITI AISYAH IDRUS ...
i never thought things will turn out this way . well , maybe u're ryte . im having more & more new friends . bt tht doesn't mean tht i've forgotten about you . or maybe i tend to sometimes . but come on , u have ur set of friends too , don't you ? YOU too forget me when u have NEW friends too , don't you ? and nw wht ? u think i only find u when i need u when im in deep shit ? tht i forgot abt us ? tht i don't appreciate u ? tht i took u as a "spare part" ?
wht were u thinking ?! true enough , u've sacrified ur time to be my listening ear .. u've helped me alot when im in deep shits .. u gave me all kinds of advice to make my life better .. you're always there to go thru thick n thin together .. and i want u to knw tht i DO REALLY APPRECIATE THT A LOT bcos THTS WHT FRIENDS DO ! and im sorry that im not a good friend . then y do u think i'll come running to u when i haf probs ? bcos I TRUST YOU n I LOVE YOU . maybe yes , i didn't spend much time with you . i can't always meet you and hangout with you . well YOU shud knw tht i can't go out tht much . even if i did , i wud lie to my parents and stuffs .. and i dun want to lie anymore .
i knw i ignored u for quite a long time . bt then y didn't u approach me ? if you really think that fucking oblivious to the situation here , then y did i ever bother to find out whts wrong from u ? y didn't u tell me when i asked u ? things wud've been so much better if u were to tell me the truth and whts wrong . y didn't you ? u knw tht i felt something was wrong . so am i still being OBLIVIOUS ? n u think i wasn't worried when u did tht ?! u think u're the only one HURT ?! I AM HURT TOO knwing tht my gdfriend wants me PRETEND that she nvr existed in my LIFE . wht do u take me for ? i think it's tht easy to forget abt u when we haf been goodfriends for a looong time , knwing each other so well , been thru everything together .. u think it's easy ? if it is , y dun u do it first ?! let's see hw u can go on w/o me ! ohh wht am i thinking ?! OF COS U CAN ! u haf many friends , and so letting go of one doesn't hurt much ryte ...?
bt i want u to knw tht i still do LOVE YOU & TREASURE U AS MY BESTFRIEND. up to you to decide . i knw im in the wrong , and im sorry . bt i dun wanna lose u , bestfriend . really .
FYI: YOU are my bestest friend . none of my other friends is better than you . nt trying to soothe ur hert bt it's fact . & who says u're nt good enuf ? u're too good to even be my friend .
then maybe u're ryte , i dun deserve a friend like you .
