Saturday, June 13, 2009
Dearest diary,i spent almost the whole day at kak Lin's crib . had lunch and dinner there . played this puzzle game till i got addicted to it . played Boggle and chapcilichapcilichapchapchap . hahah ! quite fun . it got my mind off boyfriend for awhile . but when i got back home , i started to be as usual , missing him like hell and my itchy hands wanting to dial his no . i realised i've been so sensitive since the timeout . i can't see couples having fun or listen to our love songs and stuffs , or i'll start crying . i really can't . i can't even eat food and go to places tht reminded me of him .
he's really changed . he's nt the i'll be there for you kinda guy anymore . the guy whom i thought will lend me a listening ear , the one who will prioritise me ferst before his friends , someone whom i i thoguht i was w\his everything . guess all tht lasted only for awhile . we're nt the same the same like last tyme , and i dun think we're ever goona be tht way again . all i ask for is just his attention , nt more than tht . he doesn't haf the time for me anymore . and look ! he doesn't even make an effort to call or msg me or stg to knw my whereabouts n well-beings , when last tyme he'll call me every hour aking where i am n wht im doing , whether i've eaten anot , whether im going out anot . all the question which shows he care alot abt me . bt nw ? NONE . Z-E-R-O- !
Girlfriend called and told me she tried to get thru me tht afternoon and didn't managed to . so , she asked boyfriend where i am . she said boyfriend sounds angry . he even told her tht he has nt contacted me for a long time . padahal , 1 day only . then she asked me to call boyfriend to aplogise to him and stuffs . bt if i were to do tht , he'll get even mad with his mood like this . i knw him too well . it's really nt the time . bt since i too cnnt bear hw much i missed him , i tried to call .
me: hey .. uhm .. u busy ..?
boyfriend: ngah dota .. y ? (still have tht angry voice)
me: ouh .. nvm lah then ..
boyfriend: k bye . (put dwn the phone)
see ! told ya it's nt the time . so maybe , i shudn't disturb him just yet . maybe wait for another week ? well .. i'll try .. bt really , i hope we can celebrate our 1yr7mths anni this coming 19th . i am looking forward to it bt , nt really putting high hopes tht it'll happen . bt on my part , i haf planned many thgs for him ald . i intend to use my savings for tht day . bt , idk wht to buy for him . any idea anyone ? if there is , leave ur suggestion on my tagboard aites ! (:
i just hope he'll be back to himself by then .. ):
