Thursday, June 11, 2009
Dearest diary, the day started off well when girlfriend was with me the whole day at my crib . we went shopping together & then lepaak at my house from morning till noon . she was there to accompany me while boyfriend is working . she knws im feeling lonely , maybe ? well , im glad she's there for me though .
after much waiting , still waiting for boyfriend to call me . he finishes work at 7 . so , he shud be changed by 7.15 & shud be home by 8 . so this stupid me waited till 8 and called , and guess wht ? he's at Far East Plaza eating with his friend's girlfriend . i mean , i can't probably be angry cos they're workmates . so maybe they're just eating there and go home , i thought . well , didn't knw tht i was wrong when she forced him to send her home n stuffs . at last , ended at JE interchange . then boyfriend lepaak and then went home .
when he got home , he was talking to me . i didn't realise tht i was talking to him angrily cos my intention wasn't to show . a few minutes after , tht girl called him and keep bugging him to find her boyfriend who is so rimas of her . i mean , who wudn't be ryte ?!!
look . i dun mind she asking boyfriend for help . but please lah , he needs time for me too ! enough of going out to eat with you , send you home and back again , entertaining u otp talking abt nth bt ur bloody boyfriend !
i scolded boyfriend asking him why he shud be so kepo in their relationship . i mean , i knw both of them are his friends , bt at least limit uhs ! passing mesaages for them is ald good enuf . no need lah until must send her home and back again , make her boyfriend feel wrong , make ME & HIM FIGHT ! i mean, nonsence sia . can't they solve themselves or wht ? so wht if they're in probs ? when i and boyfriend are in probs , nobody was there to help except ourselves ! urghh !
and at last , i asked for a timeout . and no , the reason is nt only bcos osf this , bt also bcos of so many other stuffs i dun wish to tell . but wht i cn say , i really cannot take it anymore . he even said im being a pagar in hys life . so ok .. i am ryte ? i'll just leave him alone with his life without anyone PAGAR-ING his life . maybe his life is better off without me ? idk lah.
so fucked up ryte nw .
