Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Dearest diary,Im feeling so down and dissappointed right now . i wanna be like anyone else , free to go wherever they want for a REASON . i hate being OVERprotected . it feels like im being ditched to another world called " boredom " . everyone's enjoying their life , and so is boyfriend . i knw im gonna haf my bitchy Os this year . but tht doesn't mean that i can't enjoy wht i love right ? it's just nt fair! i too , like everyone else , wanna have time doing things i love . instead of always mugging as if im gonna get full marks for Os! im getting sick of life each day past by . and i mean S-I-C-K !!
what could be worst than not having boyfriend after Os , when tht will be the time tht i can spend the hell out of me with him ? we're not gonna get to celebrate my birthday , 2nd year anniversary and so much more . yes , boyfriend is going to NS this 10th July . it's like 2 months from now . i don't knw wht else to do or say other than imagining hws life gonna be like when he's nt around . ohmehgawd , i can't bear nt listening to his voice or even nt knwing hws he's doing over there . im gonna miss him absofuckinglutely much !!
okay lets cut that topic cos it makes me wanna kill myself right now and i mean NOW !
tomorrow is chemistry test on cations and anions . i've got everything in my head already . hopefully i'll do well this time cos i've always been weak in chemistry . lol xD
