Running away

Dearest diary,
yeah yeah , i knw it's been decades since i updated u . been busy with almost everything . and yeah , thnks to the chicks who keep bugging to me update this rusty-dusty blog of mine . im just nt good in words , u see . so don't blame me for the so-called quite "formal" way of my writings .

so , life's been such a bore . holidays has started but NOT for me . im having structured remedials for the whole of the 1st week . time flies so fast it's june ald . zip-zap-zoop , comes july and it's prelims . fast ryte ? bt i want it to be fasteeeeeeeeeeeeeeerr !!like i hope tmw's the end of Os ..? haha . wht a lame ryte ? i knw . -__-

so , i went down to Jurong just nw to meet boyfriend . waited for him for so long siak . he said he had a suprise for me . and when he came , he brought along with him two black helmets . i was like dunno-wht-to-say . so i asked whose helmets are those , and he said they belong to wandi's sister . so i asked again , wht on earth is he doing with tht ? his reply was tht we are gonna give bck the helmets to her bck at the carpark . and so , i knw the suprise wasn't abt motor . ):

when we reached the carpark , we went to the 3rd level . i was still searching for the girl whose helmets belongs to . at last , we stopped in front of a black, SPARK motorcyle . and i was like , why are we stopping here ? and he finally said tht the motor belong to him . THAT was the suprise . bt the helmets still belongs to wandi's sister though . -_- i was like WHAAAAAAAAAATT ????!!!!!!!!!!!! i still didn't believe him until ............. he took out the keys , turn it , and started the engine . and then he turned and said to me "now u believe , my dear ?" an smiled . my reaction was stoned . i didn't knw wht to do or say . and he thought tht i didn't like it . bt i told him laa i was in a DILEMMA ! TRAUMA ! then he took me for a ride to causeway point and we watched MONSTERS VS ALIENS . even ryte then , i was still speechless .

after everything, he sent me home and before he went off , i took his helmet out , gave him a kiss on the cheeks , and said "thnks for everything and congrats syg . i love you ." and smiled . then he said "like FINALLY u say something . pheww ! " he went off and i watched him go until he's outta sight .

thnks for the suprise today , darling . i really dunno wht to do or say . im really proud u haf ur dream bike . just be careful on the road k ? bcos i only have one boyfriend . lol . (((:

ps: we shud've taken a pic of us & the motor today ! aww .. ): nvm , nxt tyme make sure we do ! [:

i ♥ you .

Dearest diary,
i would to wish anyone celebrating Vesak day today a wonderous HAPPY VESAK DAY !

today's monday n im suppose to go for malay dance practice . but i can't bcos mama n papa aren't going for class today ! wth . i didn't get to go for another practice , again . -_____- i feel so guilty when i keep on appearing n disappearing . haiz ..

see tht pic ? thts Along . she's my bestie in the group . well actually , everyone is everybody's bestie in the group . but today , she makes me feel so loved. (:

i told her im sorry abt this yr's sucky attendance of mine bcos of restrain bcos of Os . but she only replied was " we don't forget our dancers easily . we will always be waiting for you . " see hw sweet my dancers are ?!! tht makes me feel more guilty , infact . ohmehgawd , i love my dancers soooo much n i miss performing ! pls let the time fast forward till the end of Os pls ! i can't waaaaait for FREEDOM !!

& im missing boyfriend like crazy now . haiz .. ))):

Dearest diary,
i have an announcement to make . i have uploaded my photoshoot pictures !! went to scan those pics at the shop nearby with boyfriend just nw . and boyfriend tompang to repair his hp too . lol . then girlfriend came to my house and had dinner here . long time since i met her . miss her lots y'knw ! okay i shall stop blabberring for now . here comes the pictures ... !!

okay thts all . i LOVE the photos lah okay ! i still haf somemore vouchers . any who wants it , pls tag or email or whtever it is as long as u cn get thru me . (((:

Dearest diary,
Im feeling so down and dissappointed right now . i wanna be like anyone else , free to go wherever they want for a REASON . i hate being OVERprotected . it feels like im being ditched to another world called " boredom " . everyone's enjoying their life , and so is boyfriend . i knw im gonna haf my bitchy Os this year . but tht doesn't mean that i can't enjoy wht i love right ? it's just nt fair! i too , like everyone else , wanna have time doing things i love . instead of always mugging as if im gonna get full marks for Os! im getting sick of life each day past by . and i mean S-I-C-K !!

what could be worst than not having boyfriend after Os , when tht will be the time tht i can spend the hell out of me with him ? we're not gonna get to celebrate my birthday , 2nd year anniversary and so much more . yes , boyfriend is going to NS this 10th July . it's like 2 months from now . i don't knw wht else to do or say other than imagining hws life gonna be like when he's nt around . ohmehgawd , i can't bear nt listening to his voice or even nt knwing hws he's doing over there . im gonna miss him absofuckinglutely much !!

okay lets cut that topic cos it makes me wanna kill myself right now and i mean NOW !

tomorrow is chemistry test on cations and anions . i've got everything in my head already . hopefully i'll do well this time cos i've always been weak in chemistry . lol xD

Dearest diary,
at last, i can rest and haf a peace of mind now. i've been rushing on coswork and recipes ytd bcos today's my practical! really rushing sia. i spent the whole day ytd and today morning justto finish everything up and guess wht? i haf to buy my own ingredients, bcos i didn't hand up my food order list! wth. but anyways, it was all worth it though. everything went smoothly for my pract today, just a lil rushing here and there. bt besides tht, it was all alryte. [:

On the brighter note for the day, i get to meet boyfriend after weeks and weeks of nt meeting. ohmehgawd, i miss him so much! i hugged him so tightly the whole day, bt the misses just won't go away.. ):

Plus, i got my makeover photoshoot pictures today!! went dwn to Bugis with boyfriend to get the pictures. boyfriend was shocked. he saed he liked all of them! [: bt too bad, it was printed. its nt on cd. which means, i still hafta fork out money to scan and put it in a cd . i promise i'll upload laa okay? (:

Next, boyfriend wanted to go to ILUMA, in which is a new shopping centre beside Bugis street. it was brand new, so everything seems quiet empty, not many pple. boyfriend looked so happy. he even reminded me tht I am the one who go there with him on his first time! yay! (break record laa kirekn.. xD)

After tawaf-ing arnd the ILUMA, we took the bus home. i accompanied him to the bustop near my house though, since he spared his time for me today rather than playing stupid Dota. -_-

mama saed she wanna brings us out to CWP to mamam and jln2 sekejap. its so rare that she did this. okay challo belos! im gg to CWP nw! and yes, i love you. *smile showing teeth*