Monday, March 30, 2009
Dear diary, first and foremost, i would like to wish
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND!!!
and as usual, im the first to wish him. so, BOO to the ones who wished him aft me. lol xD
bad news: his present is nt ready luhh! spent till 4 in the morning n still nt done. plus, i haven't tell papa abt celebrating his bdae tmw. wtf.
things were okay at first. but when i took him for a walk to a loooooong path to cwp, he was angry. since then, it has been a disaster. he said he was okay, bt by the look of his face, i knw he's nt.
then i brought him to POPULAR. showed him the book i bought for him, bt he didn't knw it was his present laa. he said "eww! i haf a lot at hm ald!" wth ryte? and wht cn be worst than ending up a birthday celebration by giving each other stupid faces at the end of the day? no more kiss and hugs. no more wishes. simply NOTHING.
since then, i wasn't in the mood to do anything or even talked to anyone. im just so fucked up and extremely frustrated tht i could have killed myself with drugs and pills. i never thought his bdae will end, or even be this way.
im sorry i didn't do much for ur bdae syg.. it's just tht, i thought that being with you on ur birthday will be the greatest gift for the day. but instead, im just a disaster. what a fucker i am.
and we end off the day with curses. wht a girlfriend i am. sigh. ):
