Friday, March 6, 2009
Dear diary,I've told him everything . i've had had my say . i feel so relieved . really . i just hope he understands everything now . but im still worried . i myself don't knw wht im worried about . i didn't meant to hurt him . i've gotta tell him the truth . and last nyte was the day ...
Despite everything that happened last nyte , im still nt sure if he's coming back . but all i knw, i'll always be waiting . he said he's gonna tell me everything tmw , when we're gonna bring lil' sis out for her birthday . i just hope he'll bring me good news . sigh .
i wonder what did i do or say tht make him fall in love with me on 191107 . i wanna be tht kinda girl he fell deeply in love with the last time . and tht girl was me .
For a start , i sms-ed him today telling him my whereabouts , just lyke what i used to . he must be worried sick knwing im alone at home and him nt knwing my whereabouts ryte ? but he didn't reply to my first msg ... maybe his pp8 low ? or maybe he's busy dota-ing ? or did i start off t early calling him 'sayaang' ? idk . but all i knw , i've gotta go slow and give him some time to suit himself again like what we used to be . i'll just hafta be patient . i , too , don't wanna rush into things . i knw it's gonna take a lot , and i mean A LOT of time . nt only himself , but myself too .
a day more to lil' sis birthday ... and a day more to judgement day ..
all i can do now is just pray and hope everythings gonna fall into place , just like it used to be ..
So , will you make a happy girl again ?
