YAY! mama and papa are back! omg. i miss them truck loads. nt many things changed. only that papa is now bald! haha. but looked soooo cute. his head looked so round. just like his tummy. hehs. he looked like a baby when he slept. oh god. just can't take my eyes off hym. hahs.
i miss my comp too! 2 weeks of nt having my comp with me just sux! just one word to describe this. B O R I N G ! bt well, im glad those boring days finally ended. pheww!
but there's just one more thing missing. my dearest baby khairin. i get so worried looking at hym working TOO hard. i mean, i dun mind him working.. but there's limit to it. nowadays, he seems to be more grumpy. he'll get easily pissed off at every lil' mistake i did. it's just so scary. plus, even when those boring days are over, i still can't really talk to him tt much though. coz of his work stuffs. he has no more time for me. nt exactly no more. he has. but just a few hours.
not only tt, he doesn't haf enuf sleep. work in the moring and came home the next morning. even my daddy doesn't work tt much. but im trying to understand him. as much as i wanna talk to him more often, i can't force him. he's just too stubbron sometimes.
alryte, back to story.
at nyte, i got a chance to talk to him peacefully. at last! urghh! then he came up with this aziemah stuff. she's a girl he once fell in love with nt bcoz of her beauty, bt bcoz of her heart. i dun blame him thinking abt her. the way he talks abt her is as if, she's an angel he once met. it's such a lie if i say tt im nt jealous. then i told him something that will hurt him even more.. something i've kept for a long time. something that make me weak. something that make me lose trust and hope in him once. it just takes once sentence to explain it all. "
i don't feel special to you anymore."
just that sentence, and the atmopshere seems so tensed. bt i was just being frank since he came up abt the aziemah thingy. bt that's wad i really feel. bt to me, he's more than special to me. no words can't describe how much i loved and treasure him. hw else am i suppose to prove? bt at the least, i noe that he knew it. and i do too. durh!
well, i'll just end up this post with a note for him.
" i love you. "
