today sux. i got injured. plus a bad headache and my head is gonna explode anytyme from nw thinking bt hym. u noe guys, he didn't call me the whole of today. i waited and waited but there's still no call from hym yet. i didn't wanna give up, so i keep on waiting. i can't find anything to occupy myself as the tyme goes by. my patience are getting thinner and thinner.
at last, i can't take it anymore. so i gave in and called hym via hakim's fone. i didn't expect hym to pick up the fone. bt he did. he's at wandi's house, i dunno for wad. i started off by asking hym y he didn't call me the whole of today. and his ans was bcoz i didn't find hym. ME nt finding hym? or he nt even bothered enuf to call me? bt i just kept quite. silence filled up our conversation while silent cries filled up my heart. i just dunno y. sometymes thinking of hym cud make me happy.. make me smile.. make me laugh.. but MOST of the tyme, it makes me cry..thinking of it back, shudn't he be the one i shud be happy and something that can make me smile when im down EVERYTYME i think abt hym?.. well, too bad. i didn't. i didn't felt it at all.
at last, we ended up the conversation by concluding that we wud nt find each other. bt wad doe tt mean? dun tell me the 1-week incident is gonna happen agn?.. ohh please, nooo!! i dun wanna lose hym agn.
ohh god. wads going on with us? is this some kind of signs? or are these just challenges u're trying to test us? or are you trying to tell me that we're nt gonna last? bt please god.. i want hym.u've given hym to me,pls dun take hym away. i dun wanna be hurt again. even wif u wanna hurt us, pls god, dun do it. if u still insist then just hurt me, not hym. i dun want hym to suffer. coz i believe i was the one who started off this mess. i'll slowly clean this up. bt if he's nt the one for me, then prove it to me, ohh god! dun kill me softly like this. it hurts. it really does.
