hey donkeys of my heart! new blogskin! by me of coz. hees. :)
oh well.. i miss my baby so much! its been days since i last saw hym. aww. :(
yesterday he went for hys STUPID thingy. i hate it! read my lips.. HATE IT! plus wadever crap he's gonna do there, will be at NYTE! urghh! oh well, i trust hym aniwae. and make sure u don't break tt trust darling!
someone stalked me today! i was walking home from skool when i realised tt there's this one black jet car following me from behind. and then the car horn-ed. i was lyke..WHATEVER! suddenly i there's this two scums who suddenly called out to me and asked for my name, fone no, and all those craps. they even asked whether i want to have a ride on their "mr bean-like" car. just tt its black and a lil' bigger. and suddenly they stopped in front of me and opened the door. i ran home like an insanified freak and they were following from behind! as soon as i reached my neighbourhood, they were nowhere to be seen. i was afraid if they were hiding or some sort like tt, so i rushed home. got home, told my mom. my mom was like "what! y didn't u call me? y didn't u shout for help?" bt then she became speechless when i told her tt its part of her fault nt giving me a such thingy in the world called
HANDPHONE. then called my hubby told hym the story. i can't really tell whether there's any reaction cause it seems like there none! haiz. up to hym lurhh!
today's
ngaji sucks! omg. im losing my voice. halfway thru reading, my voice sounded like a spoilt radio. haiyoo. trying to call my hym bt he's nt picking up the fone! oh puhhleashh! pick up the damn fone! wth is he doing?
u noe.. lately, as the days goes by, i feel like he's getting further and further away from me. he don't seemed to care abt me like wad he did the last tyme. im here all alone. i wanna tell my problems bt i can't. coz i dun think he cares. (even if he does. i dunno.) and now the
monkey has been turned into human! tt farhan (an idiotic asshole i've hated all these while) whose been poisoning his mind with hys stuffs. buying hym meals when nt wanting hym to go home and have the hell of time with hym and company. and suddenly yesterday, hubby told me tt farhan actually encouraged hym to study! wth. i smell something fishy. hw cud someone change in just a short period of tyme?!
ok whatever it is, the main point now is tt, he asked me who has been encouraging hym to study? who is the one who want hym to pass hys exams? who is the one who wants hym to succeed? he said "well.. it's nt you. it's farhan."
WTF! then wad he means to say is.. im nt encouraging. im nt motivative enuf. im nt the one who wants hym to succeed. hw do you think i felt guys? im fucking hurt. doesn't he noe tt i was supporting hym all these while? doesn't he noe tt i want hym to be a successful person? don't he rmbred the tymes when i nag hym abt hys studies? does he noe hw heartbroken i am when he failed hys tests? does he noe all that?
no... he doesn't. he didn't realise tt i was there all the while.. he was too busy to even feel my presence. well, it all up to hym. bt B, i want you to noe this... i'll always be by ur side and like wad i've promised "we'll go thru thick and thin, gd and bad tyme together".. rmbr?
i ♥ you.
